I awakened from the dream and just lay still. Please get help. It is so on point for me - and many others I would guess. I also don't like making the first move. I feel marginalized in the gay community for this reason, and for having South Asian looks as I am half Indian, half European.
I am in the holiday seasons when I have lost, not one, but two partners, so my grief is heavy, terribly heavy and sometimes debilitating. So to the younger ones. Real friends, true friends, in my experience actually become part of our families. Gay Men and Aging:
Two older gay men friends of mine have tried to kill themselves in the last few years.